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Listen to the Whisper

Listen to the Whisper

Embracing courage seems so simple in the life of a child.

It’s a little second grader asking a new friend to play with her at recess, risking the chance she’ll say no.

It’s jumping off that first little diving board into the arms of a swimming instructor.

It’s putting their arms out to catch that ball just thrown to them.

I am convinced that courage is the key element in a life well-lived.   I’m also convinced that admitting that we’re lacking courage is a profoundly difficult thing for adults to do. Because it’s so easy to just continue our day-to-day lives without any examination of our dreams and the courage it takes to pursue it.

Mid-life, I think, is an interesting time to take on the concept of courage.  Typically, this season of life brings about reflection about what has been accomplished and a contemplation of how to make the most impact on others for the remainder of our life.  To be willing to “jump off that diving board” into the unknown takes a lot of courage, because honestly, there’s a lot at stake.  But, perhaps, there’s even more at stake, if you don’t embrace the courage and jump.

For me, it’s a matter of being being at a point where I’ve found success, but knowing that there’s something more that utilizes my talents in a way that benefits others even more.

I am hearing a whisper about what that is.

I’ve tried to deny it.

I’ve tried to ignore it.

And, I’ve tried to say it wasn’t true.

But, the whisper remains.

Why?  Because it takes courage to respond to a whisper that alters the direction of your life. It’s not what was in “the plan.”  It’s not how I defined success before.  But, it is the truth.

So, my first step in applying courage to this whisper is writing it down. Because then, it becomes real.  For me, writing it down, makes it actionable.

Could I easily go on and continue to find success in my current path?  Of course I could.  That’s just who I am.  Progress will always be a part of my life.

But, I’m not going for progress any more.  I’m going for impact. I’m searching for passion.  I’m looking to be the best me I can be, even if it’s a me I didn’t plan for.

If you hear a whisper, I encourage you to listen. Write it down. Let it blossom.  Because that is a life well lived.


Are You Still Broken?


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“You always put a positive spin on a situation. Why do you do that?” 

Joel, my LifePlan facilitator posed that question to me. That question caught me off guard a little bit.

“Umm…I responded.  It’s just who I am.  I don’t dwell on the negative aspects of life.  I feel like I can see through the challenges for the beauty that’s in them.”

In my head, I was contemplating, “Isn’t that a good thing?”

Admittedly, I was a bit perplexed by his question and honestly, I’m still exploring that question. Positivity is a trait that family, friends and colleague have described me by.  My pride in that probably comes into play.

Fast forward to today, as I am reading Matt Ham’s book, Redefine Rich: A New Perspective on The Good Life. Matt digs into four principles that are represented by the letters in rich.  The first one is Recognize Your Broken.

This particular principle causes me to pause.  Even after reading the chapter about brokenness, something is whispering to me to “keep exploring” this principle.  What does it mean for me?  Why am I caught up on it?

Here’s a peek inside the book and Matt’s thoughts on brokenness.

“This process of understanding brokenness is necessary to obtain the outcome of living richly. In fact, I think we need to work on being broken as a way to grow….Here’s the tension.  The world says, You aren’t broken; you’re fine.  It’s just a phase.”

Here’s what I do know, I pursued and experienced my LifePlan experience with Joel because I was broken. That has been truth that I’ve known for months now and is outlined on my blog here.  It makes sense that I was broken prior to LifePlan, particularly if you look into my root system. That was a past that included an absentee father addicted to drugs.  It included verbal abuse where I was consistently told that I was selfish for pursuing goals and constant attacks behind closed doors and in public on my character.  I had mentors, but I lacked a consistent guide in life.  Thus, I navigated life internally and did the best I could, but it did leave me with misplaced self worth.

Thus, my decision to pursue LifePlan and my life altering discoveries during and afterward.  It was so powerful.

But, what about now?  Am I still broken? After all the discoveries?  Even though I have appropriate placed self worth? Even though my level of content is far beyond what it was a year ago?

There’s a small whisper in me that says a gentle “yes….”

I’m also hearing…

“Here’s the tension.  The world says, You aren’t broken; you’re fine.  It’s just a phase.”  

“You always put a positive spin on a situation. Why do you do that?”  

So, what is still broken?  Is brokenness a big ginormous elephant in the room that can’t be ignored or can be a small aspect of your life that is broken that prevents complete richness?  If so, what is that for me?  Does it lie in a choice I’ve made?  Am I living life on my terms, not society’s?  Am I truly pursuing my passion?  Is there a lie I’m still telling myself?

What I do know about brokenness is this.  It’s a pursuit, one that I might have thought ended with LifePlan, but perhaps it never ends.  Life is challenging and there’s likely always going to be lies that we hear and believe.  Maybe the pursuit of overcoming brokeness is always there?

My first inclination is to deny that.  I find little value in getting caught up in obstacles in life. But, that’s not what I’d be doing, is it?  I would simply be defining the broken aspect and overcoming.

Are you broken? Do you understand that brokenness?  Who can you seek out to help you navigate that?




Defining Leadership

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“Lead Me.”

The power of learning how to lead oneself is powerful beyond measure.

As a part of Chris LoCurto’s LifePlan process, you look at your root system.  This a journey back in time where you examine those factors in your life, particularly in your childhood, that has led to who you are today. It’s impact on your perspective is immense and allows you to continuously dig deep into the “why’s” of your life.

As I navigate the waters of leadership, I am defining what leadership means to me. I’ve learned it is vital to explore one’s own definition of leadership, because the only leader I could possibly be successful at is the one that uses my unique talents and gifts. Leadership  cannot always be defined by a pre-determined list of qualities. Take a listen to Marcus Buckingham refer to this in an EntreLeadership podcast.

I found myself looking into my root system to understand the type of leaders that lies at the heart of who I am.

My childhood lacked a consistent strong role model in regard to growth and improvement.  I was raised in poverty. With an absentee father whose main committment was to drugs,  and a home life that had dysfunction, I was left to find my own resources for navigating life. I sought those out in the forms of books and mentors and they did indeed play a key role in my life.  At the end of the day, though, I was left to the thoughts in my own head to be able to break the chains of poverty–both the financial chains and the mindset shackles.

Ultimately, I had to lead myself to break free of those chains.

As an impressionable teenager, I had to…

Recognize when my actions didn’t line up with my professed values.

Seek out knowledge on psychology, sociology and emotional intelligence.

Be courageous as I took on navigating life on my own.

See the mindset that was facilitated in me and recognize I had the power to change that.

Dismiss the lies in my home that attacked my character and self-esteem.

Push away the thoughts that my circumstances defined me.

If we pinpointed the one thing that allowed me to mature past the mindset in my root system, it would be the fact that I led myself.

Fast forward to today. Can I now use this mindset of leading myself to become a better leader?  Absolutely! It’s my strength. It’s second nature to me because I’ve had years of life experiences in leading myself.

Now, I will say that all leaders should be leading themselves.  I’m not unique in that.  I’m just unique in that my root system, and the necessity that I lead myself to overcome it, positioned me to have this be one of my greatest advantages as a leader.

I an not at all saying leaders should only look within themselves when leading others.  However, if a leader can truthfully face their root system, digging through all the positives and negatives of that, and become a better version of themselves…I guarantee you, their tribe will respect, trust and follow them with no hesitation. And, they will position themselves to be the authentic leader that can make a difference in the lives of others.

So, for me, leadership defined, begins with “someone who can lead themselves.”






Mindset Shift: I Want to Master…

Mindset Shift- I want to Master

“I want to master life.”

That’s what I told my LifePlan facilitator. As the words came out of my mouth, there was a nagging thought that said “that’s not true.”

It wasn’t until today, after reflecting on a stressful week last week, that I realized how I needed to shift that mindset.

It’s three months post-LifePlan for me. I’ve been reflecting on my the event and my LifePlan, self-assessing where I’m at. The truth is I’m flawed and some weeks I do better than others. Work demands led me to putting in a lot of hours last week, at the cost of exercise and other things that refuel me like reading and writing. We dove into a weekend with a full schedule.  Saturday night hit and I was spent.  I hit my point where stress was allowing victim thoughts to enter my thought pattern.

I intentionally did three things that changed that.

I flipped through Rory Vaden’s book, Procrastinate on Purpose. I read these words.

  1. You need to free yourself of the need to feel like you have to be everything to everyone.
  2. You have to let go of the absurd idea that you owe everyone an explanation.
  3. You have to learn to flat out Ignore certain things.
  4. If the only reason you are doing something is because you feel obligated just because someone asked you to do it–don’t do it.

I was busy at the time, in the midst of “finally” doing  duties around the house (something I had neglected throughout the week). But, I put these thoughts in the back of my head.

I listened to Michael Hyatt’s podcast, “How to Finally Achieve Work Life Balance” during an early morning run.

I was reminded of what this means to me…my belief that work life balance is living out my values.  Honesty with myself, led me to admit that I didn’t live out my values last week by neglecting being a good steward with my physical health and allowing work to consume me. (Which caused frustration with myself because in LifePlan I said my number one thing that caused me to put my breaks on in life is my health–when I’m not taking care of myself, everything suffers). Granted, there were things with work that had to be done, but I was not strategic enough in setting up my schedule in the first place.

The most important intentional move I made of the weekend….saying no to some things Sunday afternoon that were not priority (despite the fact that they felt demanding) and I retook control of my life–control I had given away. I put on my running shoes and hit the asphalt.  I came home and  prepared healthy lunches for the week.  And, I spent some time alone refueling.  Did that mean I didn’t get work done?  That is true.  But, my mindset is healthy and ready to take on the week.  And, I’m no longer a victim.

As I mowed the yard Sunday evening, it hit me. What I said in LifePlan was wrong. I don’t want to master life. I can’t control “life” as I had it defined in that statement–outside influences.

I want to master me. 

Because here’s the thing. We are human. We are flawed. We become stressed. We are challenged.  We even sometimes have to fight a victim mindset.  But, we have so much more power than we claim to.  We have power over our thoughts.  We have power over our victim mentality (even in the midst of stress, which is when it creeps in on me). We determine our actions. We have the power to shift our mindset.We have the power to live our values.

We have the power to master ourselves.  


What You Do and Say Matters


It was time to go to the doctor.  His eyes were red.  His nose was a faucet and the sneezing was continuous.  My son, Jonas, had never had allergies before, but clearly something was going on.  Despite it all, he was his typical happy-go-lucky self.  As we approached the desk of the receptionist, I didn’t get a warm and comfy feeling.  I got a terse “Who are ya seeing?”  I heard a huff and a puff as she pecked at the keyboard.  And then Jonas looked at her with his red poofy eyes and light-hearted spirit and smile and said “What’s your name?”  This changed her world. She replied with her name and it was as if she snapped back into reality.  She admitted she wasn’t feeling good and that was the first time she smiled all day.  She thanked Jonas.

One moment. One simple question.  One simple smile.  (Okay, and maybe the dimples on a two-year-old, curly-haired blonde).  But, ultimately, it was one human yearning for  connection and reaching out in a way that altered the other’s day.

What we say and do matters.

I began reflecting on my own life.  Are there moments in time where time stood still for just a moment because someone impacted me in a small, but profound way.  Sure, there were times like that. Here’s one of many:

I am proud of you,” was not a phrase I heard often.  Because of the root system of those around me, I really was left to navigate through ups and downs of high school and life by myself….along with a key mentor, my coach.   Because I was immature, lacked guidance from home in how to navigate through life, and still hadn’t shifted my mindset to be completely healthy yet, I struggled through high school basketball, even considered quitting at one point.  Through discussions with my coach/mentor, I battled through and got a taste of parental guidance.  Following the last basketball game of the season, I was walking to the bus for the return ride home.  My coach caught me, looked me straight in the eye and with such conviction said “I am proud of you.”  I can still feel to this day, the feeling I had from those five words.

Then, I started thinking, how have my words and actions impacted others in my life? Here’s a couple that come to mind.

  1. In college, I was a sports and news reporter for the local paper.  At the time, I was thinking I was going to be a high school teacher and softball coach.  I began writing a sports editorial for our paper.  Looking back, that was about me.  I wanted to share some thoughts and knowledge about the subject. I wondered if people would read my stuff and what they would think. And, one day, I received a three-page hand-written letter from a coach who had retired from the local school district.  He replied to much of what I had written in my editorials and then thanked me. My writing was rekindling something in him that was his passion and he was connecting with it again.  My editorial was not just about me.
  2. I used to coach a competitive softball league for high school girls. One of my parents, out of the blue one day approached me and said thank you. I assumed it had to do with coaching her daughter, but it did not.  “Thank you for all the running you do.  You inspire me and now I am running, too, and I feel great!”  She went on to explain that she would see me out running through our small town, which in turn caused her to do some reflecting on her life.  I thought my running was just about me.  It was not.

Here’s what I know to be true. Our words and our actions, impact others.

That makes sense right?  It doesn’t take much to understand that.

But, here’s the thing…

What if we lived every day, every moment knowing that our words and actions impact others in profound ways? 

Would we change how we walk?  What we say?  Whether we smile at others?  Whether we call someone by their name?   Whether we lace up our shoes and get outside to run?  Whether we express gratitude to others?  Whether we extend grace? Etc, etc, etc.

Your life matters. It matters every second. And, not just for you. It’s about you, but it’s also bigger than you.

To Be an Effective Leader: “Lead Me”

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“Lead Me.” 

That’s what I heard on my drive to work as I contemplated what small thing I could do that day that would have a big impact on my ability to lead others.

“Lead me.”  I wondered, at first, would that be “enough.” to effectively lead others that day?

But, then I paused and considered some of my core values. What I believe…no, what I know to be true is that if I am living by my core values, then I am truly leading myself.

The question is this: Would that also be leading others? 

Let’s consider some of my core values.

  1. Confidence with humility – If I exhibited confidence in the knowledge that I had, while showing humility and a growth mindset with what I didn’t know, would I be leading that day?  Of course I would.
  2. Stewardship – If I kept a focus that day on serving others, contemplating how I could add value to their life, would that be leading others?  Yes, it would.
  3. Authenticity – If I focused on being my true self, capitalizing on my unique strengths and knowing that who I was and what I could provide was not only “enough,” but also “effective” in my role, would that be leading others?  That is also true.
  4. Courage – If during those times of the day when a tough decision had to be made or I had to navigate a difficult conversation or I had to have the courage to do any of my other core values, would that be leading others? It would, because a leader has to exhibit courage, even if standing alone.

After considering just these core values, it was evident to me that what I was hearing (“Lead Me”), was indeed my path to being a great leader.

If found this interesting and powerful. So much of what I listen to and read on leadership is focused on systems thinking, on navigating the personality of others, on the change process, etc.  All that is important as well. But, if we’re not leading ourselves during those small moments of the day, we’re not leading.

What are your core values?  Let them be your guide.  Because whether you’re a leader by title or not, you are a leader in some capacity (a father, a mother, a friend, a neighbor…all our roles have a component of leadership). 








Seeking Growth? Ask Questions

Seeking Growth- Ask Questions

We live in a society of bold statements. We like bold statements.  They elicit our emotions.  They give us the perception that someone is a leader.  It can even yield group think. 

What if, instead of bold statements, we asked more questions of ourselves, of each other, and of the ideas and beliefs we hold?

Would that not allow us to grow more? Even, if we don’t agree with the answer?

I find this to be true in my work as an instructional coach.  Upon entering this field, I felt I had something to offer. I had knowledge due to my voracious reading and passion on the topic of reading and instruction.  It was my opportunity to invest in others by sharing that knowledge.

I’ve learned coaching is so much more.  In a nutshell, the most effective coaches ask questions.  It is during these conversations that those who I coach grow the most. It’s when I don’t offer them all the answers, but allow them to do the reflecting.

Wouldn’t it be quicker to just tell them what they need to know?  Sure, and sometimes the situation necessitates that.  But, are we going for quicker or more effective and lasting impact?  When I facilitate questioning in a way that allows them to have their own aha’s, the impact is permanent.  When, I tell them what they “need” to know, the impact is short-lived.

Applying this to my personal life, I would say this.  I could easily make bold statements about who I am and the beliefs that I hold.  But, there’s no growth in that, because I’m discussing the truths I already know or the truths as I currently understand them. But, if instead of that, I challenged myself with questions about my talents, my beliefs and the direction in my life, would that not lead to more growth?

For example, I could quickly say “courage” is my top core value, because it allows me to attain my other core values.  It’s a simple, yet bold statement that….stops right there.

Or, I could ask myself: How am I applying courage to my everyday life?  Did I have courage when I was challenged on a topic at work?  Did I have courage to address a difficult conversation with my husband.  Did I have courage to entertain the possibility that I could be wrong about something?  You see, it is these questions that allow growth.  Not the statements.

What questions do you need to ask yourself today?  What questions do you need to ask your team? What questions do you need to pose to your spouse?  


Why Not Run in the Rain?


It was the last run of my summer before I returned to work as an instructional coach.   

It was early morning, the perfect time to turn on the podcast, hit the road and just “listen” to what my life was telling me in my pursuit of truth.

I put on my headset, turned on the podcast and said “a few sprinkles of rain” aren’t going to stop me.

About a mile and a half in, it was pouring.

No biggie. I could just run back to the car and finish exercise on the treadmill at home.

I arrived at the car, rain running down my face, clothes wet and started the car.

Then, something caused me to pause.

Why not run in the rain? 

Think of the advantages.  Sure, I couldn’t listen to my podcast, but I could feel the rain running down me (something we all love to do as kids) and finish my run.

So, I did. And I “heard” two things as a result of embracing that moment.

1) Why do we let “rain” stop us in life?  Sure, it was annoying to have my clothes sticking to me.  I couldn’t listen to my podcast. My run was interrupted. A bug even flew up my nose. But, there was great joy in the moment because I wasn’t going to let a curve ball thrown at me disrupt my plans. I ask again, why do we do that in life?  Let’s not let stress stop us.  Or doubt. Or fear. Or hard work. Or disappointment.  Instead, know what you value.  Know the investment and what it’s worth.  And embrace the struggles.  Who knows, you might even enjoy overcoming them.

2) I rarely stop to walk when I run.  I’m there to run, to push myself.  But, I felt compelled to walk in the rain towards the end of my run.  What I “heard” was “slow down and listen.”  So, I did.  You see this summer, I think, will be one of the biggest turning points in my life (the reasons outlined on this blog).  I was overcome with gratitude that an opportunity to recognize my root system and it’s impact on me presented itself to me this summer.  I was thankful I was drawn to that place in Franklin, TN.  Thankful for my facilitator, for the brief moment in time when he played a significant part of my life.  Not only that, but the revelations and people who “showed up” in my life after that; people with a message that would facilitate my journey further. And finally, thankful for my focus on the truth.  Life is filled with precious moments, moments that bring us richness so that we can then bring richness to others.  I walked in the rain and just felt the gratitude.

So, why not run in the rain, literally and figuratively.  Embrace is for all it holds. 

And, when life tells you to pause and listen, do so.



Instructional Coaches: Let Others Pour Into You

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All successful people let others pour into them.

We all have those times in life where we look back and realize we just jumped a hurdle.  You look back in awe and realize  “that was hugely significant in my life!”  Learning that all successful people let others pour into them and living it by letting a life coach guide me was powerful beyond measure.

I’ve been an instructional coach for two years now. My first year, I had no clue what I was doing. I was making it up as I went.  And it was a position that was extremely isolating, as many coaching positions are.  My second year brought on new challenges as I entered a new district and had the opportunity to be coached to some degree.  Though the coaching I was given was limited, it was still powerful.  What I learned in the few interactions with my coach was the most important lessons I learned that year.  And, more importantly, it was during those times our students made the most progress.

Jim Knight talks about how one of the most important factors in the success of a coach is the professional development that they’re given.   If you’re an instructional coach, I cannot encourage you enough to seek out mentors.  Seek out coaches who have “been there, done that,”  because there’s few that really understand the struggles a coach goes through.  And, let me tell you, every single instructional coach has challenges that are hard to navigate through.

I’d like to highlight someone you can seek out.


Her name is Kathy Perret, an experienced teacher, coach and consultant and co-founder of the #educoach Twitter group.  I’ve had the pleasure of interacting with Kathy via Twitter.  Every conversation I have with her is one in which she is modeling growth in herself and facilitating it in others.  It’s obvious as I witness others interact with her on Twitter, that she is held in high regard.  Most importantly, she has a heart for helping others.

What should you do?

  1. Go to and familiarize yourself with her philosophy and background.
  2. Peruse the options for customized coaching including initial training, on-going support, and immediate and focused virtual assistance.
  3. Don’t take my word for it, check out her testimonials.
  4. Consider the cost savings as virtual support eliminates travel expenses.
  5. Join the #educoach Twitter chat and see for yourself the community Kathy has helped build.
  6. Email her at to see if she can help provide you the professional learning that all coaches need and rarely get.

Instructional coaching can be isolating.  It doesn’t have to be.  

Most of us that enter the realm of instructional coaching are not taught how to be coaches.  Reach out and build your capacity so that you can, in turn, build the capacity of others.


Connect, Gain Perspective, Grow

Connect, Gain Perspective, Grow

“Life is change. Growth is optional.” ~Karen Kaiser Clark

This was one of the quotes I put in my senior autobiography our high school English teacher asked us to write. I’ve always used this belief as a foundation on which to build my life.

As I was reflecting today over the last 4-5 years, and particularly this last year, I am amazed at the opportunities for growth that came about in my life because of technological advances in our society.

I’ve wondered why mentors came in an out of my life and honestly, it has bothered me at times. With the lack of parental presence in my life, I learned to become independent at a young age. I was able to find mentors through athletics and my work.

As my life took a different path, I had to fill my yearning for wisdom and perspective elsewhere.

Books were the next logical progression.  These writers were my mentors, so to speak. Books like Tuesdays with Morrie, The Five Dysfunctions of a Team, The Traveler’s Gift, Quiet and Awakening the Sleeping Giant (among many others) became guides for my life.

Then, technology advancements brought me podcasts (ie, Michael Hyatt, Dan Miller, Andy Andrews, Entreleadership, Chris LoCurto). From these podcasts I can get daily inspirations and perspective from those who have walked paths I haven’t yet walked, but will.  They provide answers from people who are passionate about helping others.

It was a podcast that led me to the doors in Franklin, TN where my life would be significantly changed as I took part in Chris LoCurto’s LifePlan event.

And, Twitter allows me to connect (on some level) to others who have a story and a message that provides further perspective.  It’s no exaggeration to say that there are days that the tweets I see coming from people like Joel Fortner, Chris LoCurto and Bruce Van Horn are exactly what I need to “hear” to wake me up. See this post for some of those tweets.

And recently blogs posts from Matt Ham have played a role in my life.

And, all this technology has given me the opportunity to have short conversations with people who can add value to my life.  People I never would have been able to connect with before.

We are all connected more than we ever have been before.  One person’a journey can now significantly impact another’s journey.  Of course, we had that before technology, but the opportunities for it now are only limited by those that don’t engage.

And, you don’t have to be an established coach or thought leader with a tribe.  You just have to have a message a story or a yearning to choose growth.   We all struggle.  We all have the opportunity to overcome.  We all have a story.  Now, more than ever, we have the opportunity to overcome.

Connect, because we are all stronger by sharing our message and gaining perspective through our own life and the lives of others.

I encourage you to click on one of the resources in this post or seek out your own.  These are just ones that have impacted me.

Find someone who has  a message that resonates with you and connect, engage, learn and grow.  Or, even consider sharing your own story. Don’t discount the power your story can have on someone else’s life. 

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